From the perfect husband,
My heart drifts far away
To places I’m ashamed of
To pleasures my flesh craves
Instead of leaning closer
On the One who fully loves
I lean into my demons
That remind me I’m not enough
I stay there til I’m desperate
Til all my my hope is gone
All I see is darkness
Left praying for the dawn
I know I can’t produce it
My lust runs too deep
And my demons cannot help me
Their love is far too cheap
I can’t even cry out
My voice is masked by tears
Why did I leave my husband?
To marry all my fears
Lost in the wilderness of my soul
Suddenly I see light
Who approaches gently?
And penetrates the night.
My Savior stands before me
My husband has returned!
He lifts my fallen head
And speaks to me this word:
My love stretches farther
Than your heart could ever go
My mercy flows more strongly
Than your mind can ever know
Come with me to safety,
Here, take my hand!
I’ll lead you and protect you
On my blood, you will stand
He allured me with His grace
With words so meek and mild
Not because of my worth
But because He loves His child
My heart is prone to wander
Of this, I am sure
His heart is my salvation
In this, I am secure
— Charis Bauman
Living Transformed 